Thursday, July 01, 2004

Feathers in the Wind

Mood: sad

I went out to put some letters in the mailbox, and on the way back I noticed a large pile of feathers in my Mom's front yard, near the bird feeder. I feel bad. I feel bad because not only do I love birds, but my Mom does, as well. She's kind enough to feed them, and then Stella--or any number of other cats in the neighborhood--pick the birds off as they eat.

The problem, I think, is the fact that the bird feeder sits on the ground and is no more than three feet high; that's an effortless jump for a cat! I feel obliged to buy my Mom a new bird feeder, one that hangs from a thin metal post stuck in the ground. That would surely reduce the number of birds that get caught. When I get a little money, I will do just that!

I tried cleaning up the feathers, but it was a lost cause. I got maybe a little over half of them, anyway. The majority of them were just too small to be raked up.

Why does a well-fed cat feel the need to continue hunting? Sometimes I really don't like cats. Birds will always be my first love. (That includes Bella, a sort of bird! Hehe....) So when Stella eats a bird, it makes me mad! I wish there was some way I could punish her, but you can't really punish a cat, can you?

The next time she comes in the house, I will try keeping her in here as long as I can. But she goes a bit crazy if I don't let her out. And that, of course, drives me crazy. Any ideas?

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

The Job That Almost Was

Mood: down but not out

Well, Tuesday of last week I went in to Inland Printworks about their opening for a pre-press tech. The owner scheduled a test run for later that day. Everything went pretty well, and he asked me to return the next day to see how I faired for the whole day. Again, the day went pretty well, but it was becoming apparent that I did have a lot to learn. However, I was told I would be tried out for the next several days, so on Thursday I worked yet again. Then, on Friday, the owner decided I was not yet at a level at which he would want to train me. Broken-spirited, I could only agree with his opinion that I was not ready to work there. I was devastated. I felt like I had failed myself. Worse yet, I felt like I failed Bella and my future with her.

But Bella, bless her, lifted my spirits. She let me know that she was proud of me for giving my best. She encouraged me, reminding me that I will find a job and things will work out. And so, for her, for our future, I continue the search. I will make her proud!