Mood: A Bit Groggy
Weight: 161
Last ate: Slim-Fast Cappuccino Shake
I had no idea that it had been so long since I posted an entry. The shame. Oh, the shame.
This place is starting to feel less and less like a home. With all the family infighting going on--over a dog, or a car--I do not feel comfortable, or even safe. I tried to be the peacemaker, but no one listens to me. The petty fighting will go on and on, until it escalates to something absolutely ridiculous. Sometimes I feel all alone in this world, with no family to call my own.
Thank God for Bella! She saves me every day. She calms me, gives me perspective on the world, makes me realize I am not alone. She loves me. Bella loves me. Love. Peace. That is everything I want. And she gives it to me. That is something special.
I've had thoughts of getting the hell out of Dodge before the bullets start flying, but I'm really in no position to do that. It crossed my mind to see if my sister would like a roommate, but I think I would just be in the way. Not to mention, I have too much stuff for her small house. I've also considered some type of live-in work, but at a guess I would need a car for that. (How can you take care of someone if you don't have a car?) I guess I'm stuck. My only hope is to be out-and-about as much as possible. I could always stay out all day, come back at night when the smoke clears, and try to get some work done in the peace of darkness.
This is no way to live.
Saturday, October 11, 2003
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Families
Mood: Disappointed
Weight: 162
Last ate: Chocolate Malt-o-Meal
Of all types of relationships, families are the most confusing. One's family can be one's support system, yet they are often the first to turn on one. I've experienced this with my family, and Bella has experienced it with hers. I rest easy knowing we have each other. The world around us can crumble and fall, but as long as we love each other we remain strong.
I love Bella deeply.
Weight: 162
Last ate: Chocolate Malt-o-Meal
Of all types of relationships, families are the most confusing. One's family can be one's support system, yet they are often the first to turn on one. I've experienced this with my family, and Bella has experienced it with hers. I rest easy knowing we have each other. The world around us can crumble and fall, but as long as we love each other we remain strong.
I love Bella deeply.
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
BOBA!
Mood: Pleased
Weight: ???
Last ate: Boba Green Tea
I just found the best place for Boba Tea! There's an Asian market near my house that has it for $1.50. (Hint: that's cheap!) It is absolutely the BEST Boba tea I have ever had. For those that don't know, Boba (aka: bubble tea, pearl tea, tapioca tea, etc.) is an iced tea or milkshake with large, black tapioca pearls at the bottom. You slurp up the tapioca pearls as you drink with a large straw, and the pearls are chewy... a bit like gum. I had the Boba Green Tea which was very sweet with a floral flavor. Don't let that turn you off... it was really refreshing and flavorful!
I also went to vote. I voted YES on the recall, but I voted for myself! (I've been known to do that.) I voted NO on 53 (didn't care, really), and YES on 54 (we need to stop the government from classifying people by race, nationality, etc.). I was going to vote for Arnold, but I'm sure he will probably win even without my vote. That is IF the recall goes through. It will be fun to see the events unfold....
Weight: ???
Last ate: Boba Green Tea
I just found the best place for Boba Tea! There's an Asian market near my house that has it for $1.50. (Hint: that's cheap!) It is absolutely the BEST Boba tea I have ever had. For those that don't know, Boba (aka: bubble tea, pearl tea, tapioca tea, etc.) is an iced tea or milkshake with large, black tapioca pearls at the bottom. You slurp up the tapioca pearls as you drink with a large straw, and the pearls are chewy... a bit like gum. I had the Boba Green Tea which was very sweet with a floral flavor. Don't let that turn you off... it was really refreshing and flavorful!
I also went to vote. I voted YES on the recall, but I voted for myself! (I've been known to do that.) I voted NO on 53 (didn't care, really), and YES on 54 (we need to stop the government from classifying people by race, nationality, etc.). I was going to vote for Arnold, but I'm sure he will probably win even without my vote. That is IF the recall goes through. It will be fun to see the events unfold....
Monday, October 06, 2003
Gangs of New York
Mood: Happy
Weight: 163
Last ate: Slim-Fast Chocolate Cookie Dough Meal Bar and Herb Tea
Saturday morning I watched Gangs of New York. Though it was good, I doubt I would want to see it again. The soundtrack was especially good, however. More interesting than the movie itself was the documentary about the real gangs of New York which was included in the special features. This was a good rental, but I would never buy it....
Weight: 163
Last ate: Slim-Fast Chocolate Cookie Dough Meal Bar and Herb Tea
Saturday morning I watched Gangs of New York. Though it was good, I doubt I would want to see it again. The soundtrack was especially good, however. More interesting than the movie itself was the documentary about the real gangs of New York which was included in the special features. This was a good rental, but I would never buy it....
Sunday Splurge?
Mood: Sad
Weight: 163
Last ate: THREE Slices of Pizza
I was scared to tally my calories for Sunday. I decided to splurge for dinner, as Bella's family was having pizza. Miraculously, I only went over my daily calorie budget by 17! This is only the second time I've gone over my allotted 1,300 calories per day. (The previous time was by a mere 9 calories.) So I'm pretty happy about that. But...
Bella was not feeling well all day today. I feel bad when she's not well. I try to take care of her and support her, but I feel fairly useless in such instances.
We had a nice little talk about religion. I told her some of my concerns about Catholicism. She has her own concerns about it, as well. But she is happy with being a Catholic. I am primarily concerned that if I were to one day become a Catholic, I wouldn't want to dishonor their religion by my not believing 100% of what they believe. There are some things I know I would never feel comfortable with. But are there any Catholics that believe EVERYTHING espoused by their religion? I find it hard to believe that that could be possible. I need to do more research on Catholicism....
Weight: 163
Last ate: THREE Slices of Pizza
I was scared to tally my calories for Sunday. I decided to splurge for dinner, as Bella's family was having pizza. Miraculously, I only went over my daily calorie budget by 17! This is only the second time I've gone over my allotted 1,300 calories per day. (The previous time was by a mere 9 calories.) So I'm pretty happy about that. But...
Bella was not feeling well all day today. I feel bad when she's not well. I try to take care of her and support her, but I feel fairly useless in such instances.
We had a nice little talk about religion. I told her some of my concerns about Catholicism. She has her own concerns about it, as well. But she is happy with being a Catholic. I am primarily concerned that if I were to one day become a Catholic, I wouldn't want to dishonor their religion by my not believing 100% of what they believe. There are some things I know I would never feel comfortable with. But are there any Catholics that believe EVERYTHING espoused by their religion? I find it hard to believe that that could be possible. I need to do more research on Catholicism....
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