Why do I feel like tomorrow's my hanging day? It's just a frickin' behind-the-wheel driving test! I should have taken the opportunity to take the test the next day, as I was offered. But no, I had to schedule it for a whole week away. I've spent this week with a gnawing feeling, an "inner nervousness", a dark forboding.
A part of me, a bigger part than I would have ever expected, is having doubts. I feel like there's going to be some little mistake that will prevent me from passing the test. But I try to bash the thoughts down, really knowing, and telling myself, that it's going to be easy. I caught on to this whole driving thing very quickly, and my comfort level while driving is very high.
I need to remind myself that some stupid little test is not going to get in the way of my promise to Bella. I will pass. I will make Bella proud.
I love her dearly. I want her to be proud of me. I want to be proud of myself.
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